Friendship

I just wanna take this time to say thanks to all my friends. Thanks a lot for ever-bearing one and another, ever-sharing the joy & the pain, and most of all for encouraging me to reach my destiny. Your friendship is a bright star to my sky, a refreshing dew to my soul, and an unfading encouragement to my every step. Each of you has always been an inspiration to me and I thank God our paths cross.

I pray that we continue sharpening each other, just as iron sharpens iron. I pray that we strengthen and carry each other as we are running the race, until we receive the crown of glory one day.

Thank you, friends, for always having faith in me and bringing out the best of me. So that I could learn to be a faithful companion and a living inspiration. So that I could have a desire to be a TRUE FRIEND to someone else.

I just want you to know, each of you are very special. Apples of God's eyes. A masterpiece in God's hand. Never give up !

Bunga di Musim Cerah (part 2)

Two days ago, my mind was opened as I listened to Joyce Meyer webcast. She urged us to smile more often and purposely form a habit of smiling. Simply because when we are smiling, we are sending signals to our body that everything is gonna be alright. Furthermore, smiles unlock the fountain of joy in our soul.

The joy, will be our strength. Strength to handle a busy day in the office, strength to persevere during hard times, and strength to soar above 1001 problems in our lives.

The message was short. Straight forward. Yet eye-opening.

It convicted me to smile more often... Really, it's just that simple! I need to learn to enjoy my life and be glad.

So that night I told myself to keep on smiling, regardless of circumstances. After all, gladness should not be dictacted by our circumstances. Gladness should be something that bubbles out of our soul. Yes, we might be facing difficulties or we might be fighting with so many problems... but still be rejoicing, knowing that all things work together for good for those who love God.

But let's not forget, to be glad is a choice...! I can choose to rejoice always, or remain sulky for the rest of the day, for the rest of the month, or for the rest of the year...

I choose to smile.

And the moment I made this choice, a song jumped into my mind. "Senyummu bunga, di musim cerah. Matamu surya, memancar ramah." I feel like God is pointing this lyric to me in a very special way. It's just like He's telling me gently that He longs to see me smiling and rejoicing in His love, again and again...

God, even in the midst of my turmoils and tears, I will choose to smile, for You.

I hear a soft whisper from heaven, "Senyummu... bunga di musim cerah."

Bunga di Musim Cerah (part 1)

These past 2 months have been a very tough time for me. Sometimes I purposely quietted down myself, trying to find my peace back.

Without realizing it, I've been reserving my talks with people in my workplace. I spoke only when it was really needed. And in worse cases, with my head bowing down purposely, just because I didn't want to see them on their eyes, nor let them catch the sadness in my eyes.

I have been smilling less frequently to the people around me. After all, I thought, who would care of smiling when your heart is very sad?

What has actually been happening is that I've gradually lost my joy...

As I shared previously, so many things have happened in these past 2 months. I tried to stand on my own feet. I made a decision for myself. However it seemed that my decision has somehow ruined my relationship with my mom. She has been very disappointed to me ever since. Not only has she lost her appetites, but she has also lost her sleep. And eventually she let us -her three daughters- know that she has been feeling down and tremendeously distressed. The disappointment was too big for her to cope with.

It was too heavy on me, too... Guilts crept. I felt bad of letting my mom feel disappointed. I have ruined her expectations, I thought.

I felt just as if my shoulders had been carrying a great pile of burden. I felt pressurized. So sad and troubled. I felt like wanna cry.

Hey, it doesn't stop here...
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